Im almost all settled down in my new home in the Forest of Dean.
It’s interesting to see that, albeit somewhat painful, the process of moving really keep us in check with how much we have accumulated in our lives.
I don’t mean only material stuff but also stories and feelings…
Every time I move (and I have been moving quite a lot, compared to my childhood, in the last 10 years) I always make that a ritual for getting in touch with my deeper self.
The unchanging self that keeps me going.
I do that through reading passages of my (many) journals while I put them in a box to take with me.
Even though the rational-analytical in me is very strong, I can also sense a powerful emotional undercurrent happening in the process.
With many of my personal planets in Mutable signs I see changes as an important and necessary part of life. But in a strange way they also trigger a feeling of getting closer to death.
I can see my Ascendant in Scorpio playing its part in how I initiate things.
Death and grief are mixed up with the joy and excitement that guided me in making the decision to change in first place…
Mutable signs versus fixed signs in the astrological chart can reflect one of the potential splits in our psyche.
And Im writing this post in an attempt to give voice and integrate these two distinct sides in me.