I’ve been feeling quite weird since the referendum’s result yesterday. (UK leaving the EU)
But I think, mostly, I am tapping into the collective confusion.
I know that, because my life has been quite messy and unclear for over a year now. Since I left my “stability” I’ve been working hard on a stronger sense of solidity and strength. (The kind that does not come from any temporary situation)
It really seems like I have truly understood that everything is so changeable that if we attach our happiness/security/meaning to anything outside ourselves we are bound, sooner or later, to be in despair.
I don’t see any other way to achieve inner peace than achieving it through some serious personal work. What else can we do really?
How can you stop life from happening? (in a larger sense)
Everything inevitably has an end and that causes suffering.
(No news for the Buddhists)
Places, countries, jobs, relationships, economy, you name it. There is always going to be the birth, development and then death of something. That’s the natural law.
And our ego self isn’t necessarily our wisest source of guidance, most of the time I find it to be just the opposite really.
Vanity, pride, greed, selfishness… the unconscious fear of disappearing is very often a guiding force to our ego. Fear of not being good enough, fear of not having enough, fear of the fear..
There must be a way out!
And for me, the way out is only through finding Me.
I really don’t know what the future holds. Even when I look at future planetary transits (that so many times can be counterproductive as it easily becomes a source of fear and anxiety) I don’t truly know what is going to happen.
It might be this, it might be that.
In this way, I don’t feel I have much power over the future really.
My power is over myself, is over how I learn to master myself. Not about how I suppress my emotions but, more perhaps, about how I can work with these powerful energies. CONSCIOUSLY.
It’s about finding ways to keep yourself centred so nothing (am I deluding myself?!) can throw you off balance. Nothing!
Feeling fearful or anxious won’t make any situation better.
And so I’ve practiced yoga twice today and I’m really paying attention to boundaries. It feels good.
The funny thing is that retrograde Saturn is making an exact trine to my MC and I ended up, surprisingly, leading a yoga practice here in the mornings. Tomorrow is my third day doing it..