I have been truly busy.
I guess that’s no news since my last post (or maybe the one just before the last?)
I remember talking about how much I’m actually enjoying the energy that the entrance of my progressed Moon into Capricorn is reflecting at this moment in time.
Focus, grounding, practicality and the enjoyment of doing what needs to be done.
But everything has two sides, and yesterday I just realised how much I’ve been under the grips of my animus. The masculine in me has been repressing and beating my feminine up big time.
The realisation came after a heated argument with my boyfriend about statistics and astrology that went wrong.
Why was I so strongly attached in defending my point of view like that?
After crying a little and consequently allowing the feminine energy to flow back through me it was clear that the man inside me was just becoming a bit of a tyrant..
And going back to the magical ways that astrology works… right when my boyfriend left, a bit pissed off, I straight away went back to working on the 3 months forecast that I was writing to one of my clients before he arrived.
As Im back to the writings, feeling still quite angry myself, I realised that I was speaking about the Moon activating my client’s natal Chiron in Gemini opposing Mars in Sagittarius when my visitor interrupted me..
I have Chiron in Gemini making an opposition to Mars (conjunct Uranus) in Sagittarius myself and I knew that this configuration, which is the symbolic representation of my animus as well, was being activated at that very moment with the recent argument..
Not only that.
I then became aware that this configuration was somehow overtaking me in the last few days and I wasn’t sure what was going on, why I wasn’t feeling quite right, until that moment..
And now Im also reading a lecture by Howard Saportas on Subpersonalities and psychological conflict.
Seeing each different configuration in the astrological chart as one of your subpersonalities fighting for attention or sometimes possessing you..
Timed by transits and progressions, or perhaps activated by the influence of another person’s presence (which you can see with the synastry), these are the moments that you have the opportunity to reintegrate them and move further ahead on your individuation process.
So today, to bring balance, Im making a point on embracing my feminine energy again.